i want to tire myself out so i can just sleep this over with. but i can’t.
i know. i feel you.
but no amount of tears and anger will do anything right now.
i’d like to tell you about nice things. nice, comforting things. things full of promise and hope.
but i don’t think that’s what you really need. what we really need.
life doesn’t always go the way we want to, the people we trust disappoint us, our hearts get broken, life goes on, etc. etc.
what we really need is to accept things as it is.
it’s painful, embarrassing and a lot of things that are uncomfortable, but there is nowhere else to go but to see things as they are.
sometimes i want to unfollow a couple of people, because while i might not necessarily like their opinions most of the time, i respect them and their beliefs. but they clog up my dashboard and i can’t see posts from other tumblrs i follow unless i start to meticulously backtrack.
then once in a while they post something that make me reflect and realize why i followed them in the first place.
i am irrationally annoyed most of the time. bordering angry tbh. from the most mundane reasons, like somebody asking me the directions to my house after i repeated it already. or anyone in the house trying to make a conversation with me when i already have my earphones on.
you don’t know it, nobody ever knows it, but i’m actually cussing everyone who offends me. even for the slightest offences.
sometimes, i’m too used being offended for no reason at all i’ve forgotten what it’s like to offend someone else.
today i offended a lot of people. including my friend. not deliberately with my friend though, it’s just my lack of mouth filter and general inexperience with life. as for the others, idgaf. unlike majority of my irritation, i actually have a legit reason to be offended to them.
and as a result, offended them instead.